So tonight, I’ve finally decided to clean my table from all the clutter that has been accumulating for the past year. Ever since I started with my JTA semester a year ago, I’ve never had a luxury of time to clean my room.
As I was throwing papers and papers of what seemed to be my whole third year life, I cam across a few things that I totally forgot about. The first one was a baby bottle with flat tops and earrings inside. It came from Shauna and was given to me days before we graduated from high school. Her letter made me remember all those 4 years of adolescent happiness and ignorance especially my senior year with my barkada. 4 years ago, I was preparing for what can be the next best 4 years of my life. A year from now, I will be entering the real world unarmed and completely on my own.
I, then, came across my starbucks planners, the ones from last year and this year. I turned my planner this year into some sort of a scrapbook of my 4 months in Europe and I was scanning through my entries of my days in Europe from my last year’s planner. I can’t believe it has been almost 5 months since I left Portugal and I’m still missing every bit of it. Best time of my life.
As I write this entry, the digital photo frame that my boyfriend gave me is flashing our pictures of the times we spent together. We’ve been together for 8 months and haven’t seen each other for 5 months. I miss him so much. :( LDRs are not easy and loving someone from the other side of the world takes work. I advice not to get into this kind of relationship if you’re not willing to risk everything. </3
In 4 days, my last year as a student will begin and I don’t know what to feel. I don’t know what to expect. However, I vow to make this year count and cherish every moment of it for this is the year of many lasts as a student and certainly a lot of firsts as an adult.
